20190122 – Tuesday – Thinking

20190122 – Tuesday – Thinking

It was a hot night and I used the air conditioner on and off during the night.

I began thinking of how my sugar levels had progressed into a pattern which was quite satisfactory for me.

For instance, last night (Monday night the 21st) at 1 am when I tested my sugar levels they were  9.4, which is about 3 too high. So to bring my sugar levels down, I injected myself with 

10 units of Novarapid (short-term insulin) and 

10 units of Lantus (Long-term insulin).

In the morning at 7.35 am my sugar level was at 7 which is still a little high, but not too bad.

Then at 3.45 pm in the afternoon, my sugar level was 12  so I took another 

20 of Lantus and 

20 of Novarapid.

This had the effect of bringing my sugar level back down to  8.

So over the whole day I had injected myself with only 30 units of Lantus and 30 units of Novarapid.

This as compared to what I used to take which was 80 units of Lantus and 30 units of Novarapid in the morning and then again in the evening another 30 units of Lantus and 30 of Novarapid.

This equates to  110 units of Lantus and  60 units of Novarapid, a total of 170 units of insulin during the day.

Looking back, this is a massive amount of insulin which was really screwing with my brain. 

No wonder I was so dizzy that I was falling out of bed from a prone position with dizziness.

My life has changed so much since I have gone on a no/low carbs diet.

It was all the carbs I was eating that was spiking my sugar levels. 

Now that I am avoiding carbs as much as possible, my sugar level “spikes” are far less, and the amount of insulin I need to take to “cover” the spiking is much, much less than before.

But, the damage has been pretty well done over a lifetime eating carbs when I am severely insulin-resistant.

My health is improving, but the years of misuse have taken its toll.

Now I work at removing all processed foods from my diet, and eat lots of protein, meat and fats and lots of vegetables (no legumes) no rice, no pasta, and very little fruit (high in sugar).

So I keep my sugar levels more even.

I have to thank Darren for persuading me to watch the film The Magic Pill and to listen to talks by Dr Tim Noakes which explained to me what was severely wrong with my diet.

It is only 3 months since I began this new way of eating but the results have been apparent and my health has improved in leaps and bounds.

So that is what I was thinking about last night.

This morning I am once again at the INC cafe enjoying the peaceful ambience of this wonderful place.

It is once again a sunny day and it is had to be down-hearted on such a lovely day.

When I got up this morning when I was showered and dressed I began my “cleaning projects” once more.

Little and often is my motto.

I found a huge zippered folder full of old movie DVDs, what to do with that?

I don’t even have a video player any more. BUT this folder is full of classic movies. “How Green is my Valley,” I love that movie, all the miners singing welsh songs.

But will I EVER watch these movies again?

Will they just sit there for another decade because I just can’t make the decision to get rid of them.

Somehow I have to get it into my head that I will not live long enough to watch any of them again.

And besides, what am I doing, when I have SO LITLE TIME left, what am I doing watching movies anyway?

So the mental battles go on, and the decisions don’t get any easier.

I see my life as a long line of binary decisions, Keep/get rid of, a series of Yes/No. As soon as one decisions is made, yes or no, then another question arises requiring a yes/no answer.

“Teach me to number my days” says the word of God.

Yes, teach me, Lord.