20180508 -Tuesday – Doctor, Again.

20180508 -Tuesday – Doctor, Again.

I woke up this morning in tears. During the night I had been struggling with too much data, too much input, too many people, to many “Why” questions and only coming up with “How” answers. 

I sent out some SOSs for help during the night, and there in my inbox was my answer, but it was too late to keep my emotions in check, so I probably cried for about 10 minutes.

Gail was driving Karen and ?? Thurlow to the airport this morning because they were going o/seas. I rang Gail (upstairs) and asked if I REALLY had to get up and shower and be dressed in time for their arrival?

Gail laughed and said, “Stay in bed till midday if you like,” so, well I am up now, and it is only 11.00 am. 

I have been in the Hunter Valley now for some 6-7 weeks. My already overloaded “friend” list has grown exponentially during those weeks and I have struggled to retain names and faces and everyone’s stories. It is like I have stepped into a whole new life. 

Every day I have struggled with my nerves and my driving, but by now I am at last familiar with where to go left or right, and so my stress levels have subsided. I have had to stop by the side of the road on numerous occasions and sleep for half an hour because my energy levels are running out faster than I have need of them.

I have heard the “politics” of the whole area and am now familiar with the dramas of the region. Hunter Valley, I have found is a regions full of some of the most wonderful people I have met (apart from all you Adelaideians) in my life. There is a spirit of love and joy here that is second to none, but there are so many people in pain.

I have prayed for Paul’s wisdom. He had “the care of all the ecclesia’s” and I now know what that means. I now know why he wrote in Romans about the factions of Paul and Apollos etc. and these divisions run through family groupings and there is so much pain and I know that the “blame game” is alive and well.

And that is why I woke up crying this morning because I can’t solve all the problems. I love all those on either side of the “great divide,” but I don’t have the wisdom the background knowledge, the judgmental skills. I just want everyone to love each other. 

But I know and recognise that there are problems there which may need to be taken to the law of the Land, and I just hope there are wise people here who can navigate that minefield. So that side of the story I will leave quite alone. 

But the division between brothers and sisters Paul has shown the way. He told Euodias, and Syntyche to just “get over it,”to be of the same mind, to forget the history and just put your arms around each other and love each other and leave the details to God (Php 4:2). 

I can hear a billion “yes but’s” here but I am not equipped to handle them, all I can say is what Paul has already said. To love each other.

So that’s all I have to say on all of that.

But I soo love you all. You have been so kind and welcoming to me. Gail has been so wonderful and caring I will never be able to repay her for loving me all this time. We have shared a lot of tears and I have tried to tolerate Ant and the cat, but without much success I am afraid. You are kinder and more tolerant than me.

My TRAILER, is all fixed. Simon Sawell certainly directed me aright there. He sent me to “Kenny” at Nelson’s Bay, who took me to “Ian” at Soldier’s point Metal, and he did the trick. My whole camper trailer is up and running. I may need a service before I leave, but that is all.

So my dear and beloved Hunter Valley and Boolooroo and Gosford friends, God willing I will be “departing these shores” on Monday 14th of May, 2018 for shores unknown, even to me. Will let you know where I am headed, which will be somewhere into the “blue horizon.” 

I have been the 14th May and I think the 7th July to fill in, so open to suggestions.

Love to all